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Suiside begins to come to mind now. It's sad. Very sad. I haven't thought that way in a long time now.

Yesterday I got so pissed I actually took the vase of a dead rose my dad had given me for X-mas a year ago. I threw it outside and made the pieces to smaller pieces. I tried cutting myself with the sharp ones but I couldn't do it.

It felt good to do that... Stress did come off... But I still got more stress...

I'm trying harder to make a band now. I can see myself on stage now singing to a crowd with my band. I've made a new song and it's pretty good. I just need to make it to where it's a rock song and not a Daughtry song. >.>'' But I do need all the luck I can get to make this happen so please pray for me people.

I have to be strong through this time... Breaking up w/him was hard... I broke his heart and his soul might be gone now... But I wish I could do something to heal those wounds. Bring back his wonderful soul. Hold it with care and love. But I know that he might not even let me. Until I figure out my true feelings I'll do something about it. For now... I just want to be friends... But he's still not wanting that either... I'll give him time... I just wish I didn't have to lose him so fast... I loved him... And I still do....