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...the most painful part of my life is that I always feel alone
and the worst part is...
is that it has to stay that way.

*sighs*...I have friends...many good and kind friends but...
i've never truly felt...connected to anyone before
I always feel...different
...alien
...unique
but alone...

so...what is there left to do when u realize your alone forever???

lie and wait for the DeathAngel to collect your soul?
worry that you'll burn in Hell?
regret all of the terrible crimes you've committed?
cut yourself?
cry?
burn yourself?
.
..
...
NOPE!!!

Cutting and burning is for amatuers...
want real pain?
try looking at another human beings body after you shot them
just because your country disagrees with what they're doing
we're all human
and the enemy...
they have families also...even if they live different
so instead of moping around for forever i've given myself a real chore..

Fighting for my country will erase the loneliness...
in the military u work as a team
and killing other people however tradgic it is
will keep me occupied
while i wait for my death
and at least i wont be worthless anymore
hmph
see you later
...nobody