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you know what.... i've decided to break up with someone i loved.... so much that i never thought i'd ever break up with... but i did so i could figure things out and think about what i wanted...

i want to make a band that way i can sing out and tell others my feelings that way instead of telling...

im tired of the way i was thinkin about my relationships before and im going to do better... im going to do better with myself... im going to do all i can to live... live not just for me but for everyone who cares about me and loves me... even my mother...

yeah i might've grown up too fast and everything but... right now i believe i have to use that grown up self of mine... use it from now on... I'm not going to try and be the kid anymore... my mother left me and i decided to become the parent... and im going to be that parent... yeah i'll make mistakes but thats life... i know that... but im going to do all i can...

my plans are to let some people who said they'd come see come see me... i plan to go to PR to see jason still... go see him and thank him for all he's done for me and tell him i truely love him...

yeah i know there are a lot of other guys who thought they were with me and everything but thats done... in the past... im moving on... they can do what they want and believe what they want but im not going to be the victim... im going to move on while they sulk and make fools of themselves just because a girl is trying to figure out the best for her life...

this is how i truely feel... if u think this is s**t...

I will prove you wrong....