My Thoughts on the Apocalypse
For first i don't want any conflicts.
I don't care about religious, politic or ethical beliefs.
I write this as my record of my thoughts, and i don't want or need your aproval.
What's the meaning of live?
Do life really needs a meaning?
Do we need to know the "Meaning of Life"?
If i told you that i discovered the "Meaning of Life" while washing the dishes, would you believe me?
Today, was a lonely day, more lonely than the others, everyday that passes i'm feeling less alive, less conected to this world, and to the people i know.
I've told before that i don't see a purpose, a reason or a meaning in life, and i can now explain why.
Tho' my life has been short, considering that i'm only 17 years old, i've never been much of "living my life", i've been most of the time locked inside windows, doors, and even myself, considering that i'm not much of sharing my thoughts with other people, since most of them disagree and try to change my mind, my mind, i think, is the only thing in life that i have of most value.
So, as i was saying, i can consider myself "dead yet alive", for the sad emotions i collect and the bad things that grew me up, my life is worse than a funeral.
when i was 14 years old, i almost died of a risk surgery, and the whole experience was very traumatic, it was like a whole month, with pain during a half of the day, and the other traveling inside of my mind by the effects of the anesthesics.
After that i decided to pretend happiness, yet i've never been really happy after that.
Concluding, my life has no meaning, the "Meaning of Life" is something that may vary from person to person, there are some that say, that the meaning of life is to live, others, to learn, others, to feel, see and etc.
But for me life still has no meaning, i've only seen bad things, and i feel bad when my mind can't lie and say that the fate of the humanity is to be selfish and cold, and yet they say it about me most of the time, i simply can't let someone be harmed or worse.
I guess i'm only waiting the end, i hope it comes soon for me, it's getting depressing to be the only one to believe that the world is already ending, and by our own fault.
For first i don't want any conflicts.
I don't care about religious, politic or ethical beliefs.
I write this as my record of my thoughts, and i don't want or need your aproval.
What's the meaning of live?
Do life really needs a meaning?
Do we need to know the "Meaning of Life"?
If i told you that i discovered the "Meaning of Life" while washing the dishes, would you believe me?
Today, was a lonely day, more lonely than the others, everyday that passes i'm feeling less alive, less conected to this world, and to the people i know.
I've told before that i don't see a purpose, a reason or a meaning in life, and i can now explain why.
Tho' my life has been short, considering that i'm only 17 years old, i've never been much of "living my life", i've been most of the time locked inside windows, doors, and even myself, considering that i'm not much of sharing my thoughts with other people, since most of them disagree and try to change my mind, my mind, i think, is the only thing in life that i have of most value.
So, as i was saying, i can consider myself "dead yet alive", for the sad emotions i collect and the bad things that grew me up, my life is worse than a funeral.
when i was 14 years old, i almost died of a risk surgery, and the whole experience was very traumatic, it was like a whole month, with pain during a half of the day, and the other traveling inside of my mind by the effects of the anesthesics.
After that i decided to pretend happiness, yet i've never been really happy after that.
Concluding, my life has no meaning, the "Meaning of Life" is something that may vary from person to person, there are some that say, that the meaning of life is to live, others, to learn, others, to feel, see and etc.
But for me life still has no meaning, i've only seen bad things, and i feel bad when my mind can't lie and say that the fate of the humanity is to be selfish and cold, and yet they say it about me most of the time, i simply can't let someone be harmed or worse.
I guess i'm only waiting the end, i hope it comes soon for me, it's getting depressing to be the only one to believe that the world is already ending, and by our own fault.
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