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Its so tiring, my head hurts; but why am I here?
I barely go to Gaia mostly because either nobody talks to me, nobody comments on my profile, nobody invites me for something, or...cause I'm just busy this month...AP exams, CST's, and my brother/mom's birthday (they have the same day), good thing its on memorial day. And from what I heard that its free if you go.
Why didn't people told me that? Why am I the only person who doesn't know these stuff....? I never participate in anything, and I never do "socialize" eek ohhh...
Whatever, I have friends that I talk to, but that's just it. Yet its because I'm not a social person and never interact with other people, I'm always afraid if they think of me anoying or something like that. That's what I always wondered what my friends think of me too, whenever I talk or do something, I end up doing things wrong and I get scared or worried of how they think of me.
Like "how stupid is she" or "what a crazy b#&^". And I'm gonna feel like this tomorrow cause I always get the feeling like they're avoiding me, but maybe because they're probably busy. I can see why and I know I'm a pretty weird person, but I just don't see myself on how I interact with new people in my life...when I go to college.
I don't know why I expressed my feelings here...but maybe people won't even give a damn of what I just said...oh well, I'll just keep going and be happy. heheh ^_^