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I guess it is a weakness when you can’t wait.
I guess she didn’t love me as much as I loved her. I would have waited a million years just to kiss her once…just to hold her once…tell her I loved her in person. I guess she is weak…she couldn’t wait for me…for us to be together.
I guess she is weak…weak compared to me…I would have stayed strong just so I could see her in person just once.
I would have done it too! I knew deep down that it was never gonna work, I told her, I told her that long distance relationships don’t work…but she still wanted to be together…she even said that we’d be together forever…that no matter what we’d get through this and one day met and finally will be together! SHE SAID SHE COULD DO IT! SHE SAID SHE COULD HOLD OUT…until then…I feel like a fool!
…I feel like a fool for having falling so in love with someone that I knew a relationship would never work out with…
I know I have to move on but…but...there’s no one better then her. I love her so much...I've never really had a true love...until I met her.
I mean...I’m not a lez or anything, and I don’t like girls...but for some reason, when we first met and we talked to each other and got to know each other...something about her just snagged me.
I told her that I hope her relationship with that guy will go well...but deep inside I hope it’s horrible for them and she will come back to me...
I feel selfish for thinking that, but I can’t help it, I’m so deeply in love with this girl...I don’t think anyone can replace her...and I've tried a million times to find someone before...*shakes head* but...no one seems interested...I’m just...feeling sorry for myself. I know I have to move on, but it’s hard.
I guess...I really do...it would be nice to not feel so shity...but there will always be that piece of hope in me that she will return and we'll be happy again...
*Shakes head again and sighs*...I was hoping to avoid a hurt like this, that’s why I never really went out with anyone...I was scared about a hurt like this…but I guess it happens to everyone…doesn’t it?
And I guess its true…you have to let go of what you love, if they come back to you then they are yours, if they don’t then they never were!
…I was giving all of myself to her…I could have been the best lover…if she could have just waited…just waited a little bit longer, just a little bit longer…I would have kept her from harms way, and loved her like no one else could…but I guess we didn’t get that far…now I have no one to give my love to and show what a real lover should be like…could be like…what a shame…
Damn…that boy…that boy is one lucky guy…he’d be a fool to let her slip through his fingers…he’d be a fool to hurt her *shakes head*
If he ever hurts her and I get word of it…I’m going to devour him alive! He’s gonna wish he never met her…
 Kuma Naru · Tue May 05, 2009 @ 08:10pm · 1 Comments |
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