not feelin to good today i cant cut myself because i cant find a fuking razor or blade or anything sharp besides a knife and im not to great with those i cant think i got a head ache from hitting myself in the head im pissed at my mom im just not all that happy anymore without hearing his voice i cant really smile without being by his side all i really wanna do is cry i wish it was raining then noone would have to see my tears they would just think it was the rain falling from my face but more then that i wish i could be with him but now its all gone he still loves me and i still love him but i cant take this life anymore its thrown me threw hell and heaven i've felt the happy moments and the sad but the thing is i was in hell longer then heaven and in hell i mored of the good times of happiness i had in heaven but without the happiness without the morns without the going on in off without everything i stand alone in an empty room its cold and bright as can be all the lies come to the light i can see the truth looking directly at me but rather then living in the light of truth i want to live in the darkness of lies knowing the truth now would only make me cry more tears wondering why im here why im closed in all alone with noone to hold me or help me say strong they all left because i cried i could sometimes see the light but all they saw was a lie i tried to close my eyes but i would get in my head it would tell all different things about my life it told me no ones really there to listen to me to understand how a 12 year old feels no one ask so i dont tell but remember im the 12 year old who went through hell just to get back again to live in the lies and then the light shines through so i try to cover my eyes but here i am again back at square one i close my eyes again and i find out i've got a bloody tounge well there gose the game i finished i cant breath i cant sleep i cant eat its all over so now i laugh at all because after all of that i still cant fall but theres one thing i can do i bet you wanna know i can always be EMO
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