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dont you just hate it when you get into fights and your world is turned upside down scream

k, heres the story,
when i moved to arizona, a week later, i started dating jesus, and he dumped his ex g-friend ronny or me, i felt really bad about it, but i really liked him. we went out, for about 5 months, then he moved. he still were going out, then he broke up with me in early febuary, all because i was really close friends with jacob, the guy he hates more then anyone. so, i went out with jacob cause we really liked eachother, he even loved me, and i didnt love him back, so about a month afterwards, i broke up with him cause i didnt loved him like he loved me, he was like a brother to me, and it felt wrong, he got all suicidal and i felt really bad, and i was going out with daniel at the time, and i still am, he asked me out a few hours after me and jacob broke up, seriousely, so, me and jesus still stayd friends, and me and his ex ronny became best friends, then, me and jesus secretly went out for a few days (i cheated on daniel, and i felt so bad about it i could barely live with myself), she found out, and she stoped talking to me, she still loved him (for god sakes, its been, what, almost 8 months since they went out, what a looser) so, me and jacob became like brother and sister again, and, then all of a sudden, jesus messages me, saying we cant be friends no more if your gonna be friends with jacob, i was crushed, jesus was like my brother too, i told him i will not pick, and then we kept on fighting and s**t, then all of a sudden he sent me a song about hello kitty (it was very sick and perverded) then he asked me to be his kitty, i said hell no, then all of a sudden we started talking, and it turns out, he was best friends with ronnie, the girl i hate the most, the one im willing to loose everything for, the one i will loose my best friends just to have nothing to do with her, and it also turns out, he has been begging her to go out with him(she just wont say yes, that b***h, if she loves him, just say yes, and then see what happens in the hospital not too long later xd ) so, i told him its me or her, and he obviously chose her, since he stopped calling me, and hung out with her at the mall(maybe she was good enough to let him screw her, he got mad at me one time because i wouldnt, but once i explained it to him, he understood) and dadada, he got her this ugly a** necklace (a cross on a cross, and neather of them believe in god for god sakes) and she flonts it to everyone, and i told him to never talk to me again, so stay out of my life, and to just die, and next thing i know, ronny is texting me saying im just mad because he loves her, he never believed a damn thing i said (that really cought me, and you will see what happened later) and there lovers and all that s**t. well, i couldnt care less, i dont love him that way, and i was mad cause he was friends with her, practicly dating her, and then i texted him saying s**t like, you never believed me you god damn bastored, how could you fall in love with the biggest b***h and liar, ect. and then me and ronnie kept on getting into fights and s**t, and she is trying to take my best friends away from me, and all the people she used to hate, is now her best friend. its gay, and evertime someone talks to her about me, that person gets all pissed and wants to fight me, its gay, and all the people at this school look for reasons to fight, then me and her got into a fight, and i sware, i almost got the cops called on me, i beat the s**t out of her, and gave her a cacussion, but since she hit me first, and i was defending myself, i wasnt in trouble, you know, fighting really sucks and my hands are hurting from typing crying beybey