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I had this girl who was my friend... and at the same time she wasnt.

We both hide behind friendly smiles but really beyond the eyes there was a hatred that seethed beneath the surface.

We did nothing and everything together, and then one day... I had pushed the line by saying the truth.

Her most recent boyfriend was my ex, so I was speaking to him.

"I'm so happy that you're with her now. Nearly all of her boyfriends have been cheating scum, so it's a relief to know that you're with her because I know you wouldnt hurt her."

So she called me back yelling and screaming at me on the phone. He had told her what I had said, but had added a few details never there.

She called me horrible things, said hurtful remarks, but I know it shouldnt have hurt me, yet it did.

Then she had someone I didnt even know know call me and tell me to go die because it would help the earth. She told me to go kill myself.

I had never felt so alone.

I cried nearly all night, knowing I shouldnt have cared what they thought, yet I did.

I never considered doing what that girl had told me to do, never believed what she said, but I did get hurt.

I shouldnt have gotten so attached, yet I did, and now, for putting in some faith in someone, I had gotten burned.

It hurts still, but I'll see her at school on Monday until the end of the year, and then I'll be gone. She will never be apart of my life, and I'm sorry...

It was a mistake, I know that now.