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i didnt need that reminder, now i will pay for it, words untrue were said, emotion uncontained. I need to find away to revert. I should have taken my chance months ago, but i waved at the opportunity as it passed... i wished i hadn't. recently, my actions in the past, my dirtly secrets that only i know i did have been brought up in my mind alot. I don't know why. i don't think it is time for karma to catch up to me, but i might be wrong. one way or another i will pay, oh well. I just hope it doesn't affect Her as much as i think it will. i dont understand why people come to me, I am NOT a good friend, no matter how much they think I am. almost everything i do, i do for my own agenda. Few exceptions of actions that weren't planned but that is ok i guess.The rest of it is completly selfish and some would say that greed is bad, but you try being the selfless nice guy for as long as i have and tell me it is profitable, cuz i have been ******** over so many times just cuz nice guys finish last....ok rant over now, you may proceed to your useless lives.