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You say to be open mind, but how can I when you not, that’s
You say to be open mind, but how can I when you not, that’s just insane

“you just need to be open minded” you say
But how can I do that when I can’t express my true feelings
So it seems I need to hide my true self from you
Dose that mean I’m hiding from you or am I trying to keep you safe from my true self

Wanting for something so much more then the life I have, but I don’t know where the hell to go
I hate it all, and it seem all I want to do is fall
Fall into myself, still I don’t know where to go
Where do I go when I have nothing left or is there nothing I want more then you
Where do I go to find you
But it seems like some people spite me, they hate me for the way I am
How can I accept your ideas when your not open minded with mine
Just fall down and die, still I know its killing me inside

Not knowing where to go for help. Not wanting any help at all
Can you love me no mater what I do
Its not that bad trust me, I’m still the same person
So what do you say, Who cares about it anyway
I just want to get this heavy burden off my chest
I’ve had this hollow shadow in my mind ever since I was young
I don’t know what to tell you, but still I love you
Can you say you will love me anyway no mater want
So what do you say?

Something new, something to do
Do you think I can love you
Wanting something somewhat normal
But how can I find that, when where all a little weird in our own way
But anyway what do you say
I know, there no way I will tell the world
Its just between you and me
How can it be different like any other day
Showing myself what I can never achieve
But still I know it’s too late for me
God help me please
How can I relay on someone that hates me
Just because I’m me

We all sin all the same so what deferent’s dose it make
I just want to live, I just want to love
But I know that god can’t love me
Because apparently I’m a disgrace in his eyes
So I will live my life a faithless fool like the rest of us

So what do you think you
What should you do when someone comes up to you
And asks for your opinion
Will it be the same nonchalant bullshit that we love say
Or will you put your foot down and speak your mind
But will anyone truly give a damn about what you say
Just sit down and lesson to this so called democracy
It seems like there digging our grave
As if where some kind of slaves to modern suicide
Who really gives a damn about the land
Kill your self in the first place
That way everything will be okay

I will keep fighting myself for my rights to my own mind
Just keep pushing forward and eventually we will fall off the edge
And fall to or Beautifully planed tragic demise
So live your life well
Love as much as you can
Fall in love and run from the responsibility of life
Love the one for you tell the end of time
Is that truly the master plan
Just move along and live on
Have no fear because I know someone will lend a ear when you down
Just grab someone’s hand and you love will live on
It doesn’t matter what people say or think
Just keep looking on and everything will fall in to place

Do you see what I mean now
When I say where just beating out heads in to the ground
Where all sick and twisted and there’s no way to fix it
I’m just fine for the way I am
And I know I’m not part of gods so called master plan
Where all here to die
So live your life and reach for the stars
Nothings too big, it seems to be just right
I want nothing more then what I have
Something a little bit better
It seems like where never satisfied with our life

So I will just go to my room and cry
Cry for the lives lost from the wars
Cry for every one who was left behind
Cry for myself because I don’t seem to understand why
This disturbing feeling in the air all around us
Just look up and fly in to the sky
All I know is all I have
There’s so much more I need to now, so I will always ask why
So there’s no need to look at the small things, it will all pass in do time
Everything will fall in to place, just give it time
Take something that’s never been done before and make it your own
Still I could go on for ever and ever
STOP!
I will speak my mind some other day





 
 
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