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My own hell I made just for me


I don't want to end up just like that

Just a sad sorry excuse of humanity

Just love me

Just love me as I am

But still you will never understand

Do we as all

I try to take the pill you give me

The I try too keep it down

But you have too many roles

I see why people don't even try

I want to be free

I want love and I want to be ne

Please don't keep me down

I don't want to drown

I want to be happy

I need to run away


You say that's not good for me

I need to obey the roles

The ones you tried to blind me with

But I have never felt like I was home there

You made it my hell

I need it you say

Why do I do it in the first place

Please piss off

I need to hate myself for a while

Why do I do it

I don't know why

All the lies there all true

I hade friends once in this place

But they all gone away

I hate myself everyday

I can't say why maby your too blame

I hate it all you made me this way

And now I can't brake free


It's so simple to say but lips cant say

You try to stop me

My making me mess up

But you can't control what go's on in my head

I hate it all I just want to love

I need some one here to keep my mind down to earth

Some one to ground me

But I wish I can go on tomorrow

But I will die tonight

Please stop me before it's too late


I don't want end to just like the rest of then

But I don't want to stay here anymore

I want something now

I need to brake free

Everyone I know are going on

But I'm being left behind

But now I am blind

I cant see a thing

I want to get out of this nightmare

But I made it myself

I am trapped because of me

That's why I need something more and less

Once I don't get it its there

I cant see in the dark

But everything around me glows

Nothing ever comes out right

Not even me