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Why is it you broke up with me...
And I'm the one feeling guilty
Doesn't make sense, but nothing does these days
Wishin' for the pain to go away
Hoping that things will stop reminding me of you
'Cause I still feel for you, I do
Don't think that I'll be able to get over those words too fast
Not when I've been feeling like trash

I know I was the one the walked away
But what else did you expect from me?
I'm not that strong
So when you dropped that bomb
I had to get far from you before I broke down and cried
Sorry, it seems like I could've tried
I didn't stay to hear all the reasons you had
Sorry if I made you mad

And what are the looks you throw toward me about?
You make me want to rip my own heart out
I hate that I couldn't fix whatever I said
Right now I feel I'd rather be dead
Sometimes I think I shouldn't have let you in
'Cause then none of this pain would've had to begin
You probably can't stand to see me
I know I'm a weakling

Don't ever think that I hate you
That's not something I'd ever be able to do
Because I hate myself, it's all my fault you turned your back
Just wish that I knew what you wanted, and what I lack
My life will go on but my feelings still remain
This is why there is lingering pain
I'm sorry I held you back, I think you misunderstood
I wouldn't have kept you from your dreams, and we're still young

Don't let us end, pretending the other doesn't exist
Because your happiness is something I'd gladly miss
Love isn't just for those couples, no
Love is also knowing when to let go
It will take much time until I can stand strong
But don't take my comments all wrong
I'm not angry with you, how could I be?
I'm only upset with what I never did see...


(This poem was written for someone... that I truly believe can't stand me any longer... I just want him to know that I'm sorry for everything I did to him... I wish I could've tried to fix the problems, but I never got the chance. And he also can't expect me to get off this that fast. The pain is pretty bad right now and it will take a long time to go away if it even does at all)