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My heart hurts every time I see her. Those hazel eyes laughing silently in my face. She doesn't see or feel my pain. She doesn't know it's there. Laughter and smiles are all fake between us though. We both know this. Even now as I stare out the bus window, drowning out the world with my music I can feel the ache just thinking of them together. I tell myself just don't think of it. But that's like saying don't think of a pink flying elephant. Bet now you can't stop thinking about it.
"Mizzy! Tell me!"
Silence is all that I ever answer him with. He's the one I don't want to picture with her. He also gave me that dumb name Mizzy. He got it off my middle name. Marie. Ariella Marie Cavalli. The not so pretty, yet everyone says so girl who is secretly crushing on the one guy she shouldn't.
"Stop poking me!" I growled at him. Not really growled but said it kinda meanly. His tannish face got a sad look but he moved away from me. I glanced back out of my window trying my hardest not to look back to him. He knew I couldn't stay mad at him for too long. So now I kept glancing at him out of the corner of my eye, but he was busy staring at his phone. Geez. People today only knew their cells. Of course he was probably talking to her.
My phone vibrated in my lap, scaring me slightly. I glanced over at him then back at my phone. He wouldn't look at me but I knew it was him. He always did this. One New Message flashed across the screen and I sighed as I opened it.
I SORRIES :'(
That's what he sent me. A small smile crept onto my lips. I don't know if he did this for her but either way it still made me happy. I looked up at him and smiled brightly, this time a real smile. "It's ok." I told him.
"Now tell me what's wrong with my Mizzy."
"You never give up do you?" Smile.
"Not when I'm worried." Worried face.
"Alec. I can't tell you. I'm sorry."
"Why not? Don't you trust me?" Now his voice rose a little. I stared at him kinda shocked. OF COURSE I trusted him. This was Alec Lockheart we're talking about. My best friend since I moved to this forsaken place and the one person I can tell everything to. Everything except that I am confused over him.
"HOW could you say that? I tell you everything Alec. Lately you haven't been telling me a single thing. I just can't tell you this one thing."
Alec just glared at me and watched as the bus rolled closer to his stop. I slid down the seat into my comfy position. Knees against the back of the other seat and leaning against the window. Yet I still stared at him shocked.
"Whatever Ariella. See ya." He waved his hand and moved away from me. I watched him silently as he skipped down the steps. I felt the tears. The burning behind my eyes and the itching at my nose. But I wouldn't cry on the bus. Not in front of these people I don't know. Only he knows how sensitive I am. So how can he be like this!
It has to be her. Ever since he started hanging out with her he changed. The way he treated me, the way he acted around me, and what he talks to me about has changed. And guess what my little diary.
THIS ALL HURTS!
So I ask the same questions I've asked you since the beginning of last year.
Why is he so dumb? Why doesn't he see my feelings?
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Sudden inspiration. :]
No takey. Completely my idea. Based only on events happening in my life. Plagerize my work and I will allow Wolfy to attack you with her flamethrower.
Thank You :]
 cariiborealis · Thu Feb 19, 2009 @ 12:34am · 1 Comments |
