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honestly i have faced alot lately. i have delt with alot of drama,all of it my own..
the things that i dont like i take too far.. lately i have felt uneasy alot :/
i dont know why or what happened.
its just i have felt this uneasy eerie feeling lately.
as well i have been taken to talk to the psychologist or doctor and they say im
just depressed and i have to chin up. look seriously i dont know half the time if im gonna live to have a job or finish school..:/
im so confused and missing my love steph doesn't help.. i don't know whats up and down some times..come on now its obvious but why cant i tell?
my judgment is poor i don't even know how to tell anymore :[
i wish i can be told i really do..i don't understand much but i do understand that i love her!!!! seriously shes my wifey and im sorry i haven't been on much its just i have tried being busy to distract my mind from things..and the fact that my friends wanted there laptop back..im sorry Hun..
but i dont know how, i really dont know what to do sometimes i derived my life back in to cards so i can feel at peace :/
these decks i build do they contain a part of me in them?
do they feel what i feel? the spell casters..the destiny hero's..the crystal beasts..and my mini friends..do they understand what i feel?
no..there just paper..how can they..i dont understand any more..
hurting my self helps a little but i hate seeing people around me sad becouse of it..
im running out of clues..
but the one thing that helps me out is being myself..and picking up my decks. :]
no matter how eerie i feel..im not done till my life drops to zero..