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I feel so alone. Sure im always surrounded by people but they have no clue what I'm going through, how I feel. I'm always in constant pain. My left side in my hip area has been killing me since november and the pain keeps getting worse. I can deal with the pain but i hate it when I brake down crying in front of people because of the pain. I hate the sympathy looks I've been getting. I hate crying myself to sleep. I hate that the doctors can't find out what's wrong. I hate the poeple that say Im lying. I hate that i can't go out with my friends that much. I hate everything. i even HATE hateing everything. I just want the doctors to find out what's wrong so I can go back to school. So I can be with my friends again. So I'll stop crying. So I'll stop getting sympathy looks. So I'll stop hateing. I JUST WANT IT TO ALL END!!! WHY WONT IT END!?!?!?