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Not much is going on just watching some deathnote and reading a book. I need someone to be with. Right now it wouldn't have to be for love or even affection. I just need to fill a void right now and everything that I do doesn't work. Family drama is happening. Right now I'm so pissed with them, that I don't want to go to the stupid wedding. They can go to hell. Normally I would feel bad about what I'm saying but I'm through playing the idiot. I want to use my brain for eveything again. I've messed up everything because I was being stupid.....namine....I'm sorry. If I gave thought to everything, then mabye things would be different. But that's all past now and doesn't matter anymore. I just wanted to get it off my chest. That is my one regret in this life. Enough of this nonsense. In lighter news it snowed for five minutes yesterday. Oh and my friends mom thought I was gay. I was sure that mabye I did something girly but turns out she thought I was gay because I'm easy to talk and I don't come off as cocky or strong like some guys. Truth is I understand, but needless to say I was pissed and I think she is a ******** retard. I'm not gay by the way. I told her that I actually like having intelligent conversations and nowadays that's hard to come by. I also told her that I've come by guys who are complete idiots and in doing so I made a vow to never be like them. I can have fun yes but I won't stoop down to their level. I've cooled down but it just goes to show how much you can learn about a person just by talking to them. It's times like these that make me wish for a deathnote.....know what I mean?
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