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I sat in the back of that black car, staring at the passing trees. I had my duffel bag in my lap, filled with everything i owned. My social worker had her hand on my shoulder, and was trying to comfort me. I ignored her, to busy concentrating on not crying. We approached a large red brick building. Big black gates stood open, letting us in. The car stopped near the front entrance. Hauling my 15-pound duffel bag out of the car, I looked around. A woman dressed in a clean white uniform came towards me. She greeted my social worker with a friendly hug. I was staring at the gates. Run! a voice in my head yelled, followed by several other voices. I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to force the voices away. They got louder, some pleading, some demanding. I took off running, my duffel bag slung across my back. The woman and my social worker yelled after me, and I sped up. The gates started to close. No, i thought, still running. The gates slammed shut and i skidded to a stop. I howled in anger and fear. I dropped down to my knees and started crying. I felt a hand on my shoulder.
"That wasn't very smart, Katlynn." The woman in the uniform said.
My social worker started yelling at me, but the woman shushed her. At least someone is on my side, I thought. The voices in my head raged at this thought. The woman, whose name is Marline, had to drag me inside. I wouldn't move on my own. She got two men to carry me to my room. They threw me on the bed and left the room. It was quiet in the room, and quiet rooms are bad for me. I stared around the room. Voices and memories washed over me, then extreme emotions flooded in. It took all my strength to keep from screaming. I started to dig through my bad desperately, eventually pulling out an Ipod. I turned it on quickly, and randomly put on a song, not caring what it was, it just needed to be loud. I sighed, my music filling the small room. Suddenly, i felt as if i was being watched. My eyes flickered to the door, where two boys were standing. My eyes locked onto theirs, like a deer staring into car headlights. One of the boys was smiling, the other's face unreadable. I became rigid, my mind and body at full alert. My eyes flickered between the two then around as much as the room i could see without turning my head. I was looking for an exit, a quick escape.
"Hello!" The smiling one's voice startled me, "What's your name?"
I blinked.
"Katlynn. My name is Katlynn. Yours are...?" I mumbled, turning down my music.
"I'm Jared and this is Steven." The smiley boy said, nodding towards the other boy. A smile seemed to come across Steven's face, but it quickly disappeared. Jared walked right into my room without being invited, and Steven scowled.
"Jared, you shouldn't walk into peoples rooms without permission..." Steven said, still standing at the door.
"You can come in, you know. I dont bite...much." I said with a crooked smile, hiding my fear and depression...like usual. He took a step into the room, face once again emotionless. He looked away from me, and stared around the room.
"What's with him?" I whisper to Jared. He smiles at me.
"He's not good with meeting people. Shy." He whispers back with a snicker. Steven snaps his head towards Jared and tackles him.
"I heard that, Jare." He said, half snarling and half smiling. I scooted off the bed and into the corner as they wrestled. They looked at me with a questioning expression, and i threw back a look that said 'Dude, get the hell off my bed'.


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