Right now, im really depressed. Would you like to know why? For at least 2 years now iv'e been trying to be someones friend. And then what does he do? He tells the teacher that im stalking him. I WAS NOT!!!!! I love to follow people. And it just so happens that I said: "Lets play follow the leader!!", with a huge smile on my face. I didn't know that he was bad at hearing!!! So I start to follow him. Then the next thing I know, our teacher gives this whole lecture about following people and stalking people and thats "not good to do", and what not. Then, at parent-treacher-confrense, our stupid teacher tells my mom IN FRONT OF ME that she thinks I have a crush on this guy. I did a little, but I only liked him for his looks. Until I realized he was really mean. He hated me, for gosh sakes!!! Everytime I looked at him he stuck the middle finger at me!!! And then, our teacher tells HIS MOM, and she doesn't want me to call him or come over to his house one day. I called him the other night and he says his mom thinks im CRAZY for stalking him!!! After I got off the phone with him becasue he wanted to play rock band, I lay in the bed sobbing. For not only that, but because everyone I love is dying. First, my cat Toshiba. Second, my Oma(grandma). Next, my Opa(grandpa). Now, the one I love most and always made me feel better, witch was NOT just an animal, was my cat Wessley, witch we had to put down 2 weeks ago. And when i was in 3rd grade, my cat Cirus, he got a disease, and we had to put HIM down!!! I also had at least 10 fish and they all died, too. IM A MONSTER!!!!! So I lay there crying, and my best friend calls me up. She talks to me a while and I complain to her that she got EVERYTHING that I EVER wanted, and then she hears that im crying and decides she has the right to say "Marti, Wessley was just a cat. ", and I grab a pair of scissors and hang up, sobbing like crazy again, and I try to cut myself with the scissors. Just like with the lead pencil, it did not work. I tried again, and I gasped really loud. It hurt first, and then it made an icy feeling after and that soothed me. So I did it again, and it felt really good that time. I look at myself in the mirror, and I frown. What am I doing to myself? I thought. So I call up the "guy" and asked him how i should stop. He said: "just...stop.", and I said: "but I can't!!", and he said that he will punch me in the face if I tried to cut myself again. I laugh. I said: "but im cutting myself now and where are you...?", and I say goodbye and hang up. I call my best friend again and said sorry for hanging up. We talk for at least 5 minutes and then the "guy" calls up in the middle of our conversation. I go on line #2 and he says he wanted to do another 3-way call with my best friend and me. So I hang up, call my best friend, then I call the "guy", and we talk. He starts singing a weird song, and then my best friend starts a song, and then I start one. Then my mom calls me and says to get off the phone. I say goodbye and hang up. I chew a whole pack of bubble gum, and watch T.V. Then I go to bed. Now you see why I was depressed?
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