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I sat out in the hallway, outside the lunch room. It was earlier decided that I didn't want to eat. I was hungry, but I wasn't going to eat. I didn't need the food. So I sat there, none of my friends knew where I was. I peeked my head around the corner of the wall, to look in the through the glass of the cafeteria and saw the back of his head. Forgetting to breathe for a moment, I turned my head back to my english paper. I was having a hard time concentrating, nothing was going right today. I must have been paranoid because everytime some walked past me I looked up.
As minutes passed I heard my name, like it was being whispered in my ear. Looking up I saw someone coming toward me. One of my friends, her bright pink hair bouncing slightly as she drew near. Amber talked to me, but now that I think about it I don't remember a single thing she said to me. She left me and I was alone again. I could have gone in the cafeteria, but I assumed Amber was going to tell my other friends where I was anyway.
A little later a blonde girl crouched in front of me. Alex looked quite happy but when I replied dimly to her hi she frowned at me. She asked me if I was alright and I merely nodded.
"Cody was worried, he thought you maybe had B lunch now..." Alex told me. I immediately felt guilty but I only replied with an "oh." Though knowing that he hadn't forgot about me made my heart beat hard against my chest because of longing and fear. She left too and I returned to my work. Then I saw a pair of dark tennis shoes a few feet away from where I was sitting. I knew it was him but I didn't look up. I continued writing the sentence I had been for english. When I finally looked up he was staring at me. There was something about his eyes. I felt like when he looked at me with those deep green eyes he knew everything about me. Finally Cody said something. My friends had been worried about me and such.
"You're not eating." He asked staring at me, reading me over closely.
"No, I'm not hungry..." I answered lamely, lying to him. It hurt to lie to him more than it did to lie to anyone else. I still don't know if he believed me or not.
"Why didn't you tell anyone you were out here?"
"I didn't know I'd be looked for..." I sighed. Saying those words was a mistake. Shock, disbelief and anger all flashed acrossed his face. For a moment he looked at me with narrowed eyes and I smiled a lame smile, making the fire worse. Then he walked away from me not saying another word. As he left my eyes welled up as I choked back the sobs. I just had to say that and make him angry, didn't I? I started putting my stuff away and then headed toward the doors upstairs, trying not to cry and failing. I was lucky he couldn't see me though... if he had, it would've made things worse. Later I've apologized more than once I still feel so stupid and I feel like he deserves someone better than me...