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i have discussed good and things involved with it, but i have not exactly discussed evil. i have felt evil, and the worst part is that it feels good , you feel that nothing can bother you because you are a superior being and the only reason that anyone disagrees with your point is because they are naive, stupid or confused, and although it is not true, it definitely feels good to get away from trying to please everyone and walk the path of enlightenment, which is difficult to to the human condition. i am not one person, i am three, the good the bad and the ugly

the good: i wish to be kind and loving to all, i am funny and friendly, i am far away from the feeling of evil, but there is always something that will bring me closer. in this stage i will seek out companionship and love, i wish for peace among men and all living things

the ugly: this stage is the stage between the good and bad, an ugly stage where i will turn on my friends without realizing it when i think they are pitying me or something else dishonorable, i have made many mistakes in this phase

the bad: i will do what i can to be nice and accomadating, but if you mention something i hate in a positive light, if you do or say anything i don't like i will continue to try to ignore it, but not for long, i am eris, i am rage and hatred and anger and all things i desire to purge, even though it feels good when i allow myself to think that i am better than those that anger me, love me but fear me, in this phase all things that are wrong with my life appear obvious and exaggerated. i wish to hear that i am great from others, i fantasize about when all will know me as i am, and will no longer be able to deny who i am, andwhen i am right i will not have to prove it as i do now.