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arrow teljet, do you still have his number? Beacuse if you want closure you should probably call him. I don't think he'll call you since he has another girl you say he's serious about meaning that he has found his closure and moved on. Wow, you managed to become friends with the ex? Or were you friends to begin with? Time heals all things, unless you think he's coming back to you let him go. Holding on to him will only cause you more pain and is unhealthy. You'll find someone better that will be loyal to you and love you in time. Acknowledge the memories and keep them close to you to help you move on or set a standard. Do you get what I'm saying?

arrow Yes, i do. Thank you.
Well, actually, you're the thousandth person to tell me those.
that i should let go and move on.
I'm listening, and I wanted to do as what I'm told.
but no matter how much I wanted to, the pain just keeps on coming back.
calling him was no use.
I tried to reach him out several times but there was a negative response.
he wouldn't reply to my messages nor even answer my call.
he's such a big chicken.lol

we had a reunion with our highschool friends last week and i didn't show up.
my reason was, i'm afraid of what it might trigger when i see him again.
and i don't want to spoil the reunion with my freaking dramas.lol
but little by little, i'm learning to walk away from my awful past,
and hopefully, in time, I could fully let him go and accept everything.

THANK YOU for the advice.
your concern really helps.