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Dear Journal,

I need to talk to you.....why journal, why is it that we have to lose the friends that we love. It's hard to think about how much pain i'm in right now. Friends are precious like a diamond. Inever used to understand at first but now i know. I miss him. I miss his laugh and who he used to be. I dont know who i am anymore...there used to be some contact but now it is lost, in some world i don't know of.......WHY???
help me, somehow..wat makes it even worse is that he was the friend i thought i would begin to trust....to open my heart to but now that alll gone. i loved him....i loved him so. and he never hurt me once, those minutes we talked, and i was happy....for the first time in my teenager life...for the first, i knew wat it was like to have a 'friend' and not a "friend".

I knew wat it was like to have him.