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i feel strange latly. everything i know is a lie. i feel tired all the time...and all i want to do lately is punch a whole through the wall. i bite everything...i was even chewing on tape yesterday. why? idk... stress probly. but, why would i be stressed out? this isn't knew... it's been happening for mounths now...but i just relized how it has been affecting me. i can't stop drinking caffene. and two days ago, i find out caffene is a drug. great. i'm always nervous... and i can't stop locking the freaken doors where ever i go. i feel sad. about alot of things, but yet i don't feel like talking about them, so i cover them up. i am ALWAYS angry. if i look at a wall long enough i'll scream at it. my nails are all bitten off, and my ears are becomming SUPER sensitive to everything. yesterday, i swear i heard my sisters heart beat. when i'm sleeping, i'll have strange dreams. like, i had a dream that my friend katie was a vampire and she and this guy were trying to turn me into one. he bit me, and i died atomatically. i woke up screaming my head off, and in the dream i felt the pain of sharp teeth in my vien. shudders when i go to scocial events, like dances, i literally sit in a corner as far away from people as posibble and i don't talk to anyone exsept the paople i came with, and only my closest friends. i can't stop thinking about if andre' likes me... and i KNOW he hates me. well...ok i don't actually know, because i can't feel his aura... but i can tell he hates me. -sighs- i don't know what to do anymore...and when i think about going to school now, i get mad. because the people at school are giving me a hard time about the andre' guy i like. so, i feel like punching a whole through a wall at school, and at home. people say that you should try crying when you feel bad, but even now i can't cry. i havn't been able to cry in a while. i want to cry so bad, or at least scream and punch a door, but... i can't. i know people have far more problems then me. that is why i do not say these things. i want to help people with there problems...not bother them with mine. so, andyone who has just read this, i apolojize for being such a sap. please forgive me. PFFFFFTTT V: origin, Ear Piercing Music. Definition: a scoff, often used randomly in sentences. Pronunciation: (Pi[short I] fit[short I]) Used in a sentence: PFFFFFTTT I SAY PFFFFTTT!!! Tame Hae · Thu Dec 25, 2008 @ 01:22am · 0 Comments


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PFFFFFTTT
V: origin, Ear Piercing Music.
Definition: a scoff, often used randomly in sentences.

Pronunciation: (Pi[short I] fit[short I])

Used in a sentence: PFFFFFTTT I SAY PFFFFTTT!!!

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