First off, I feel almost as I'm losing my best friend.
Some might to be to my own fault.
But I don't want to lose you.
Ever.
And Second off.
I love you so ******** much I hate you.
Because.
I just don't even know.
I cry because of you.
And I can't help it.
I guess I'm weak.
And I smother you because I want you to know how much I appreciate you and love you.
And Why I do that is because, I want you to know that I appreciate you because I don't ******** deserve you.
And I cry all of the time because I miss you.
And.
I know I'm not good enough.
And I can't even say anything anymore.
I've run out of things to say about you.
Before I ******** s**t up...
Not like I haven't already.
It's alright I've pretty much already gotten my mind around dying alone.
Sorry I said that.
I understand if you want to end things.
And I hate myself.
I'm fat
ugly
stupid
slutty
loud
boring
horrible
a ******** up
s**t like that.
And A lot more that can't come to my mind right now.
I have too much on my mind.
Just ******** life.
I'm losing my grip....
I feel like if I call nobody will be there to catch me...
And I'm starting to think that thats okay...
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xxPanic Its Reillyxx
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Who ever your best friend is, I doubt they'll leave, they'll be losing a great friend.
And, I think they know that they will be losing them if they did leave.
Reilly, you're none of those things.
Most people hate themselves. Actually, ALL people do.
But, you have to learn to not think that way.
You're not fat.
You're not ugly.
You're not stupid.
etc.
You're more than that.
You're much more than that.
You're beautiful.
you're nice.
And you're funny.
etc.
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Reilly, lots of people are there to catch you.
Suicide is a permanent answer to a temporary problem.
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Even, I'LL be there to catch you.
With pillows.