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I feal so tire so, so tired
So afraid of the tomarrow, so afraid
Empty my heart feals when your not here, So Empty
What she got that i dont?
How do her hips sway that mine wont?
Dose her stare stop the world at a holt?
Is mine way to cold?
Please let me know
I dont just want to let go
Without being told
Why?
Why? Is she so much of a bold word?
Why? Has she stolen what was once mine in your eyes?
Tell me i have to know why you must go.
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So tell me please why dose she chach your eyes. Why dotn you love me like you use to? What am i supost to do? Where am i supost to go? This isant romeo or juliet. Thouh i wish it was, like i wish it was just you an me in the world. Your the one i love the one i need but your still going to leave me? You tell me your afraid to hurt but its to late im allready hurting baby. So if your going to leave me then fine but dont drag it out any longer than what my heart can take. I have allready reached the point of suicide so just say good bye so i can try to make it through tonight. Just look at me in the eyes say good bye and ill continue to die. Faster you say it the quicker i can see heavans light. You where afraid of this well ok but you cant go through life with out hurting someone. So you where my first love and now im being killed. Fine ill be ok but that razer going to be my first love after you. Yeah im going to cut injer bruze my self and mabe evon if im lucky i will die. Your telling me not to cry but to late i gave you a peice of me. Then that peice is going to brake so what to do then its going to hurt. Im going to cry im guna get hurt and maybe ill die wont that be a suprise? So dont be sad when i cry, scream, die, lie on the floor broken, when you dont see me anymore, when i walk out of the door, say your not welcomed here anymore, ignore you, miss you. Because i will im going to miss you because I LOVE YOU so much that i would die for you. I would DIE FOR YOU get my words look at my eyes your that guy that i could see spending all of my life with. So yes im going to cry die scream lie walk ignore and so much more. I just want you because i love you and babe i lied i want you to kiss me i want you to all ways be near me. But you wont because she got the attention of your eyes now. But i loved you first i loved you so much but you love her two. You cant love two girls for you will grow to hate one and i think im becomming that one. So im going to cry because I LOVED YOU and theres nothing i can do. Maybe im not the one for you but how can i let you go with any ease. You made me feal like it was ok for me to smile. That mabe i was butifule for once i could be held and didnt have to allways fight for my life. Then again i let go of my hold on how i was so strong. Never did i let tears fall before i meet you, but i let loose. Maybe you did make me week but i loved it so much baby. Its just there was a fealing you gave and i didnt want it to go away. BABE DONT LEAVE ME I LOVE YOU is all i can scream when your going to say good bye. The sad thing is you havent said it yet but i know its comming to and end im fighting till the end but im losing since this had once began.