This is the Fear that's holding me in.
Throughout the day, I hold it in, letting it bottle up.
I smile as a cover, to show that I do care.
But to tell the Truth, I don't.
I feel nothing.
I feel No anger. I feel No happiness. I feel No....no.. joy.
But if Anything, I feel Pain.
I feel a deep pain in my heart.
Somthing has been stolen from me, my heart.
But I dont know who or what stole it.
I feel Fear.
I have all those emotions bottled up inside me.
But I fear the Dark.
I fear the Dark, For when the day, the Fakeness, The Plastered on Smiles are gone,
and It's just me, Alone in my pitiful bundle of hurt, No reason to live.
and I fear the Dark, Because in the Dark I do Not sleep.
I think.
and While I think, I know all my mistakes.
And I realize all I've done wrong.
How Many people seem to hate me.
I don't Know what I did.
I suppose I've Become too needy.
But While I'm in the dark, I feel all these emotions inside of me.
and I cry.
I have not lost anything dear to me, but I cry anyway.
I am in the dark, where no one but me can see or hear me.
and hear alone in the dark is where I wonder 'Will My soul wake up in the Morning? Will it give up?? Will I feel another day?'
But I dont know if I want to go on.
I feel pain and Fear.
Those are the Only things I feel.
and I am so alone.
I need help.... So much help.
and then in the dark, I will collapse.
But I will wake again, for another day of faux humor, stupid looking smiles, stupid jokes no one will remember.
And I fear the Night.
I fear the Darkness that Will come.
And how I will judge myself for this night.
 the riveting rose · Fri Dec 05, 2008 @ 02:50am · 0 Comments |
