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Okay, this is me beind depressed and talking bout it through a poetic form if you will.

You don't know me. Like you knew me. You stopped listening the moment that I needed you the most. You cant see me. Like you saw me. Truth comes, easy. But I scream cause its hurt, your ever word cuts me inside me and leaves me worse. Theres no way back, and what if there was? You'd still be you and I'm still me. But don't say goodbye...

There is beauty in the dark side. I'm not frightened, without it I could never feel the sun. So I scream cause it hurts, your everyword. Cuts me inside and leaves me worse.

Nothing will change no matter what you say. Why don't you trust me? I remember what you said that night. "What's wrong? Don't you trust me?" Well now I ask you that same question. Why. Don't. You. Trust. Me? I couldn't tell you what was wrong that night because it was my burden to bear. I didn't wanna worry you with it. Now I feel like your so far away.
That everytime I take a step closer, you take a step back, why is that?

Gone away are the golden days. Their just a page in my diary. I look at them frequently; those memories have been following me as a shadow now, as the tears roll down my eyes. I wish you were here. I miss that smile that could light up the wholeroom.
Why haven't I seen it in awhile?

I was true as the sky is blue.
But I don't think I can say the same for you.

I took a chance.
You took a swing.
I took it hard.
But even though I lay on the ground I see who you are.
It's not hard to see who you are underneath. I've seen your act, and I know all the facts.
Why won't you show me who you are underneath?

The tears are forming in my eyes. But I wont look away. But you can't win if you never give in, into that voice within, that's saying to pick up your chin its only life. Don't run away. It's only life.
But, then, why does it seem so hard?

I hope you know its not easy.. not easy for me.

It's 8pm, feelin like I just lost a friend. Can you tell me that I haven't?

I'm feeling like I don't know you. Yes, I remember what you said that night..And I know that you see what your doing to me...
But..Can you tell me why?