oh! hello. it's is a suprise to see anyone looking at this. seem's like everyone hates me. my best friend ashlee is hating on me. and all she said was, "ur annoying, and im sick and tired of putting up with you."
yet, (ashlee), how many times have i heard you talk to me about him and how much you love him. dont you think that that sometimes HURTS or gets annoying a little bit? you know i still like you alot, but i hold in what i want to say so you dont start hating on me. oh, but look. i already made you do that. we were fine a week ago, but then on friday when i see you at school, you are all like "shut up" "go away" and you dont even tell me why u dont want me near you. you could have told me why u wanted me to stay away from you. in stead of being mean about it.
and now there's another one. another best friend of mine. we were going out. although i guess it was only for a few weeks. well, i didnt catch her drift when she said "i think i think i just like you as a really good friend." so, i've been thinking that we have been still going out. stupid, yes. i know. like ashlee says. im retarded. and now, i feellike a complete idiot b/c of it. and i asked her if she wanted to maybe hang out at my place and play pool. but, she just said my name with a few periods after it and logged off.
i had thought of so much. so many things that remind me of ashlee. and the last image i have in my head of her is her looking at me with a disgusted look on her face. yea, that sure says alot. and when i see that face, i feel like a complete jerk. cuz somehow i had aggervated her soo much, that she hates me now.
and, ther are quite some things about the other one. i had heard so many songs that reminded me of her. and any thoughts i had wont ever happen.
maybe all my friends i have now will just dissapear once highschool starts. maybe we will still be friends. or maybe we will be more then friends. but by the looks at things. i wont EVER be more then just friends with my friends i have now. i've ruined one friendship. and i'm working on how to fix it. and im wanting another friendship to be more then friendship. but i want what SHE wants. and if she wants to be just then friends, well then we will just be friends and i'll just have to live with it.
 kargoboy117 · Mon Nov 24, 2008 @ 01:53am · 4 Comments |
