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Cant help but rant for now...

I could've taken the algebra 2 reassessment. But no. I was an a** and forgot to do the stupid work. "Forgot" oh more like, was way too lazy and dumbassy to do it. Excuse my extreme profanities... just in a terrible mood.

Haha when I'm in a good mood 8 or so days from now I'll look back on this and laugh at myself for being so mad.

Now I'll just have a C in math.
On another note, my math teacher had a sub come in... her father in law died. I guess there are more important things happening right now... I shouldn't be so mad. I should just use this as a lesson for the future (ha yeah right)

This senior (note, I'm a freshman) gave me his cell... And being the incredibly nice a** I was I took it and did NOT rip it up. I'm not going to call though or text... don't wanna lead anyone on. I kept thinking to myself I need some love right now... but some slow, gradually growing love.

Besides, I didn't know how to react. This is the first time I've been in such a situation. I'm more comfortable with me nurturing a one-sided love... even the person I wanted so badly to attain would be better off without me (and I would be better off too).

I don't trust that guy. I can't, I don't know him yet. I'm willing to give him a chance (to gain my trust that is) and maybe we'll be friends. But I hope he was just flirting, I'd hate it if someone was serious about me at this point.

That being said, I'm uncomfortable around flirts. Of course I'll just suck it up and smile at them and maybe try to flirt back sweatdrop But right now I want lasting friendships. A friendship where I could act stupid but they won't mind being seen with me. I don't want friends that are embarrassed to have me around. That's not friendship. That's being a douche and wasting my time.

I guess for someone to be my friend, they should be someone I could easily talk with about ANYTHING (from Aunt Flow to the Spanish teacher's open fly) But I've only found like one of those... and she doesn't even go the same school as me now.

They also need to be intelligent. They can be slow (I'm slow too) but they need to be... not drooling vegetable. That's a bit of an exaggeration... but I'm referring to the oh so brilliant people [/sarcasm] in my french class.

I prefer drawing ability. Better or worse than mine, I don't care. As long as they love drawing. Don't care for athletic people or pretty popular people.

Lastly, they must be open-minded. If by some chance I turn out to be bisexual they must be accepting of whatever feelings I harbor.
LAWL.
Yeah fat chance I'm bisexual. Everyone's a little bisexual inside, but as they "explore" more they show a preference. Some people's may be squelched by the norms of modern society but hey that's not my problem.

Wow I keep getting really off topic. Speaking of which, I don't even have a topic. -.- And I just typed a freaking novel.