Hahaha. I hate that word, Jealous.
jeal⋅ous –adjective 1. feeling resentment against someone because of that person's rivalry, success, or advantages
It's come upon me. I'm jealous because of a good friend of mine. And.. all the guys I've like(d) are interested in her.
She's so strong too. And nice, and pretty... It's not fair.
Why am I born this way? I'm not beautiful. Why not?
It makes me jealous.
My personality has flaws too. I'm very shy. I get nervous all the time. I get jealous. And I have anger issues.
Usually I have good control over my anger problems, but sometimes i just get sooo annoyed I flip! Like, one of my friends won't leave me alone about certain stuff. And I can't stand it. I told her to stop and everything.
You know... I just want to move. I wish I could run away to germany or someplace in europe. I'd be lost, and I wouldn't be able to speak any languages.. and I'd be alone. But i feel that way here, so why not?
I might not be alone, but me/myself haven't opened up to anyone except a select few people. They don't even care about me. Which is ridiculous. They shouldn't though, I'm not good enough.
I'm not smart, dark haired, asian, beautiful, skinny, talented, or anything. So i deserve to be this way.
I feel stupid taking this out all on a gaia message, but I know no one or... someone won't read it anyways so that's why.
Myspace is too risky, everyone reads it.
I'm always the one to start up conversations.. and I always mess up too. People criticize everything i do. I mean..gosh.
there's a new song out btw, and it's beautiful.
White Horse.
Look it up, because... i love it.
daisuki desu （大好きです）
I've never met anyone so amazing. To me, he's perfect. No matter what you say perfect is. He's moving to Japan and I'll miss him so much. He won't even remember me. I promise.. I'll wait a year after he leaves, to move on.
 Courtney-Chi · Thu Nov 13, 2008 @ 08:51pm · 0 Comments |
