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Okay so I am officially DONE talking about jaw surgery stuff.
So if you're hooked on this journal uh.. lol I guess.
If you were only interested in my recovery than you can stop reading now!

I Got into the habit of writing journals again so I want to keep doing it every week or so.. For normal s**t. Not that my life is that amazing or anything.

ANYWAY

Today, a paltry two days after my doctor said I was done with all my jaw surgery stuff (My mouth still doesn't open that wide and my lower lip is still numb but that was expected for months afterward) I want to the Navy Recruiter.

For those who don't know, I've wanted to join the armed forced for.. well.. At least since.. July or so. I think. It was a combination of reasons that I really don't care to go over again but I WANT to join now and my mind has been made up and you can't change it, but thank you for the people who have respected my decision/helped me so far! Shoutouts to U-235 and Coyotecom, who were the most help.

Anyhow, I've been seeing the recruiter for the navy for a while, and long story short he said to not try and sign up until after I was healed from the surgery.

I went today to see him, I have filled out the preliminary paperwork, and while I am not "hooked in" yet I may as well be. I just need to get my medical records and some other stuff to them, and then we can start the physical process and all that s**t.

So once I give them my medical records, which should be today or tomorrow, it will take their medical people three days to review. And after that three days, they will tell me how long I need to wait, if I need to wait at all, or if I am a lost cause and I can't join ( sad ). Regardless, the recruiter estimated a month and that they probably wouldn't turn me down because they're still hurting for people.

So that is that. Hopefully I will be going into basic SOON. Not soon enough. D:<

So, a lot of people (who coincidentally don't read this journal) have been wondering about why I want so much art so fast all of the sudden. It's as if my money is just going to magically disappear if I don't use it on art within the month.

You all probably don't care but it is stress relieving to write out all my stupid a** problems so I'm going to tell you anyway smile

I am doing it because... I don't think I'll be here for long.
I am doing it because, regardless or not if I make it into the Navy, there is a good change me and the internet are going to have a huge fallout and if I do happen to make nice with the internet later, Gaia probably isn't going to be on the white list.

Which was clever words for "Wow I hate this site and I want to leave with some stuff I can take home with me." Kind of. But pretend I was nicer about it.

Also, I don't know what is wrong with me but apparently I am being 10% more a*****e to everyone as each day passes. So since it's been 2 months.. that's like.. 60% more assholey. Wow. I'm an a*****e.

So I want to leave Gaia with (a) lots of art. and (b) not the worst reputation ever.

SPEAKING OF ART
There is a dude named mallaard over on sheezy (and dA) and I LOVE his art style. Hopefully getting an rl commission of Q from him soon, but it's not set in stone.

Another person, on sheezyart, had REALLY CHEAP parchment commissions for $10. So I ordered one from her. Of Q. And that should be done soon.
Yay.

Still waiting on the art from the last two art auctions I won. And I'm still the HB on the 3rd art auction, which ends on the 15th. But I hope I do win this one, because it has an artist in it who draws monster and I need kickass birthday art for someone.
HOPE THEY FINISH IT ON TIME D:<

I am trying so much harder to be nicer to everyone but it seems like it is just not enough, or when I gain ground I take two steps back by saying/doing something really stupid. Maybe I'm overthinking it, but usually I am the type of person who, instead of trying to repair bridges for too long, I'll give up after a certain amount of time and just cut ties with everyone and make new friends.

Which is probably why in a fit of emo I made my new friends chat thread - looking for new friends on Gaia. It's okay. Not working as well as I planned. I wish Gaia personals were back. I made most of my really good friends from there.

Auuugh.