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I wish you would love me,
u told me once that i meant everything to you. and because of that i melted in Ur arms...i Loved you so much so why...why would you... of all people do this to me?...i knew that as long as we loved each other, and i was by your side...with your love in my heart...nothing else would matter...the world would stop spinning for us if we got in a fight and it would rain until we were together again....now my world has been still for too long and I'm stuck on the side without the sun...and it has rained so much that its shriveled up my heart... If Love is a game, then Ive gambled it all and lost...I'm not sad...I'm very close...but I'm not...to Love and to win is such an unimaginable feeling...there's nothing else better that the world could offer you...and to Love and to lose...is the next best thing. I still Love you, and that love will never go away...Ive made a promise, and because Ive made that promise Ive lost half of my life. Never again will i know Love........no...never will i know love. Not once did you love me...no flirting, girlfriend, wife....children...ill never be able to have any of that because i promised you were my last...and i don't regret that promise...i only want you to know i chose you over all of that.
..if one day you came to me,
...and asked for my love
i would look at you just once, just once to remember all the love i had for you, the miracle of love you gave me...to see how beautiful u are and how much i still love you...i wouldn't believe how perfect u still are to me even after all of this has happened...and then finally i would weep...

Because I Wont Want You Anymore.