As I run I can't think straight.
I keep running into the woods.
Complete darkness surrounds me.
I see a small tree and run over to it.
As I sit underneath the crooked tree I think.
I think about all that I've done.
Sitting there I pray for God to make everything okay.
I pray for him to send me an angel.
I wait.
As I wait I begin to cry.
Even God doesn't care sometimes.
The one time I really need him, he's not there.
I pick a blade of grass and gently run it across my wrist.
The grass slices through my bare skin.
As I bleed I hold my wrist tight.
A tear falls onto the small cut and mixes with my blood.
I watch as the red swirls in the clear water.
As I watch my only source of light flickers off.
It's completely dark.
There is nothing to be afraid of.
I'm not scared.
All I want is for my life to end.
I wait.
I eventually stand up.
I slowly start to walk.
As I walk I come to a street lined with houses on both sides.
This is where my friend lives.
I stop and think, "Do I really want to risk going there?"
I start to walk again.
Deep down I want to be found.
I sit on the swing outside her door for a while.
As I sit I wonder what will happen when I am found.
I finally bring myself to knock.
I am invited in with a smile.
I know they and everyone else are ashamed of me; Including myself.
My friend and I talk for a while.
As we talk another knock comes at the door.
My mom is standing there with a fake smile on her face.
I have been caught.
My life is over.
I'm going to be forced into a new school.
Hopefully I'll die before then.
I just don't want to leave my friends.
Now, as I write this, I cry tears of acid that burn my eyes.
I can't change anything, not even my own fate.
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