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My Life
By Black H2o

darkness
despair
fog
depression
8
a number sideways means infinity
a meaning to me of my pain
to my heart
to my soul
but to my flesh it does not matter
a blade
shining in the sunset
reflecting the light that shines upon it
a light that never shines upon me
myself
always covered in darkness
a fog
surrounding my very spirit
blinding me
severing me from all other life
leaving me stranded in my depression wishing for a chance
a chance to make a difference
a chance to make my life mean something
a chance to change my path
one of regret
one of shame
my path is one not to be proud of
for i may never be happy
i must always be sad
so i can use my life to make those around me laugh
although
this is something i cant do to myself
i need somebody else
somebody who
like me
can make others around them feel happy
but
i dont want somebody else
i dont want to hurt anybody else in my life
but without somebody
i will die
lonely
severed
heart broken
and forgotten