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Mood atm ----> cry emo

So...Im at school.....got here at 7:15 for my yearbook meeting...before that though my mother told me something in the car...My grandmother might die soon.

Being in a mexican family means I have many family members, but most never talked to me past the age of 3. This is my dads mother so im closer to her (not as close as I am to my grandmother on my mothers side but still close)

Thats all I can think about all day and becuase I already missed 1 day of drivers ed I can't afford to miss another..so yea

After school Im going to go see my grandmother for what could be the last time


I heart you Grandma Connie..

if you die I will remember you not how I will see you in the bed. Weakened, maybe scared, balding but how you lived in your life, happy, proud, and alive crying heart


9:30 Pm mood atm-----> cry X infinity

Nothing could prepare me for the state I saw my grandmother in today. I put on all the protections, covering, gloves, and breath mask before my brothers did...I walked in and I could only stand in the door way, sit next to her, and then get out...before I started to brawl my eyes out in front of my brothers "Its that bad eh?" My mother later read a prayer for her, that also made me and her cry a little more.

Of course after a while we were getting a little more comfortiable so we didn't cry when looking at her...only when she asked my mother to make a will did I feel the urge to cry again...but alas we have returned home...most of my hw undone becuase we left to see her right after school, er drivers ed I should say... I mst rely on my friends to get my hw for tommrow...I hope my teachers will understand

~Foxy