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OMG! Has it really been that long since I last journaled here? So much has happened.....

But before I get to any of that, I want to make 1 final note on the whole Royal deal. Royal is now claiming that he is really a guy and that the whole "guess what? i'm a girl!" was cuz he had a girlfriend in real life but didn't want to "hurt me" by telling me the truth. At this point, I don't give a damn. He had a chance with me and he majorly screwed up. I'm not gonna be the pathetic ex-girlfriend just dying for another chance. I dunno, I might have given him another chance, but it's too late for him now. I'll explain why shortly.

Anyways, my family and I finally moved to Ohio. It took awhile, but I'm kind of glad that it all worked out the way it did. If it hadn't happened in exactly the way it happened, there are some fantastic people here that I wouldn't have met and my life would be totally different.

But there's more than that. One of the fantastic people I met is this totally amazing guy who I'll call Tradgedy (have you noticed how I don't like to use real names?). He's just......he's so perfect for me.

When I first met him, he was gay but now he's decided he's bi. I'd like to think it's cuz of me, but I'm not sure......I'm 99.99% sure he cares for me the way I care for him. A little over a week ago he kissed me.....a lot......but I haven't been able to have a decent conversation with him since.

You see, Tradgedy may be perfect for me, but he still comes with some "baggage." He smokes, he drinks, and he does various assorted drugs, and I'm little miss "straight and narrow." He also dropped out of school about two weeks ago and is now living about 40 minutes away from me. Sigh......I just can't have an easy, simple relationship, can I?

hugs,

~Kaggie-chan