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I Wonder
Sometimes I really wonder if it's normal to be all "I hate the world" one day and the next day like "I'm in love with life" I mean really, does that even make sense? Come on, those are like complete opposites yet somehow are able to live together. haha Now that I think of it, it reminds me of how my parents are and how me and my little sister are. We are all so different, yet somehow we all live together without killing one another lol I was going to say peacefully, but thats not always the case sadly. We all have our opinions and once someone starts acting stubborn all hell breaks loose, well at least most of the time it does. Me and my family have an interesting relationship, I don't know its kind of weird. Like with my family I like to be alone, I tend to stay in the room. I love indoors, I love my room, I love alone time, basically I act anti-social. What's interesting is that when I'm with friends its totally different, I'm loud, I'm always with someone, I'm a social butterfly, I just become a people person. Once again I wonder how come I can act so differently and yet still be one person, it also makes me ask why. Why am I like this? Is it normal? Are other people like this too? I mean I can complain about it all day if I want, but what's the point, especially if its normal. I mean complaing gets you nowhere unless your a cute spoiled little kid begging you mom or dad for candy. Action is the way to get things done, doing something to change it. Though my problem in this case is to find out what's wrong, or if anything is even wrong in the first place. Then I need to find out how to fix it, if necessary, and last but not least, maybe find someone who understands me, someone who can actually help me. Though I'm not one to ask for help, in this case I think I actually need it. Ugh, typing this all out isn't really helping I guess, finding answers would be of better use, though I don't exactly know where to look for them. Oh well, I'm just going to go to bed now, I guess, It's late and I have to get up early for church haha I don't want to be tired when I get up or when I'm there, now do I? lol
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