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I went to Christian before school and asked him if I could tell him something after school. He said it was fine, and I was kinda nervous all day. Then the moment of truth arrived, and I did it.
We were walking after class, and I asked if I could steal all his attention for a minute. He said sure. I said that this was really hard for me to tell him, but I felt like it was something I needed to do, for me. Then I told him that I had a big crush on him.
He looked at me for a minute, and then he said "I don't understand." So I had to stand there and blush for a minute, and find a way to explain it to him, and I came up with 'It means that you have a romantic interest in someone. Basically, I'm saying I have a romantic interest in you."
Then he got sort of serious, and he said that he knew how hard it was for me to tell him that. He had done the same thing three or four times, and he had been rejected. Then I said 'thank you for understanding. I just felt like I needed to tell you.' And he said that he understood, but that he didn't feel the same way. I smiled at him and said that I knew that, but it was something that I felt I needed to get off my chest. Then he smiled and said I should be proud, and I asked why, and he said he didn't know how to explain it in English, so I laughed and said that he could write it down in German and I could put it in a translator. xd
So we laughed, and we're still gonna be friends, and I think that this was a good thing for me to do, because it shoves that stupid matter out of the way for he and I to become even better friends. I'm glad about that.

Then, on the walk home, I thought about having a crush on someone, and how it's a lot like an animal in your heart. You leave it alone in the dark, and eventually it'll get mean, and start snarling at you every time you try to calm it. You care for it, and let it walk around in the sunshine, and it's happy as can be.
So I have a crush on Christian. Big deal. It'll fade away now, and until then, I'll let Crush be outside, so everyone can see, and it will be happy until it moves on to bigger and better things. ^-^
Wait... that didn't come out right, but it's still kind of what I mean. Oh well! xd