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i sit at the computer desk and i look at the handgun sitting on the desk next to the knife. i think about it and pick it up. i put the gun to my temple and look in the black computer screen. i stare at it and think of all the old times with all my friends. all the pain i went through and all the times i was happy and i laughed. i put pressure on the trigger and pull it. my head knocks to the side then back with my brain and blood pouring from the big gaping hole in my skull. my eyes look up with a soulless stare. my soul rises from my body and rises up. i realize and thik to myself "i did it! im dead! i have no more problems!" then i look down at all the people i once knew and walked down the street with.
then i go to my ex's house. the man i love most in the world. and i see him with another gurl. i start to cry and my soul dissapears. my soul now wanders the streets crying. i killed myself over a guy who hated me. but i cant help but love him. crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying