Don't read this!!!!I just want to put this down somewhere because if I don't it will make me explode! I have finally found the guy that I can love and who loves me. I don't care if people just say it's temporary or just a fling I love him. However fate has yet again gone against me and is trying to make me miserable! Pretty much my whole life has been spent in fear of my mom's second husband and buried in stress! In the 15 years of my life I have not been able to be an actual kid. When I was little I was all alone at home taking care of myself. Sure my mom's husband was there but the only time he cared whether I was there or not was if he wanted to take his anger out on me or have me do something for him. Then when I got older my mom got severly sick and we still don't know what it is. While my mom was sick i was taking care of my little sister trying to make sure my mom was okay when all i wanted to do was go off somewhere and just be left alone to cry. Now i'm fifteen years old and am still dealing with the mistakes my mom has made and worried every day that her syco ex is going to find us and kill us. The only true happiness I have ever gained was my boyfriend and now everything is trying to keep me from being with him!
Well that's it most of the s**t I have dealt with in my life. Bye.
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