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Oh man, how long has it been?
Wow I haven't updated in like forever. I probably would have that thursday after Supernatural, but I was depressed for two days after the hellhounds took Dean.... I cried. and I wasn't the only one. I know three people for a fact that did.
so I wasn't on.
so the 17th and the 18th I spent time sleeping because I am not used to getting up at 6 in the morning for school, even though technically my first class doesn't start till 10:40am. So I don't have to be here, but we car pool me, phoenix, and my mom. (plus I have been out of school for three years nearly. I graduated HS in 2005)
19th through the 23rd I was in college and doing work and working on computers. My computer needs cleaned of photos and old music that didn't make it to CD yet lol.
the 24th and the 25th was fun, even though we cleaned, but I knew that it was stressful because it seemed like everyone snapped at me. But we are just stressed trying to clean up to make the house clean as a whistle (Although how are whistes clean when you blow in them and your germs go in there?)for my grandparents who vistit like twice a year. (I used to visit them after graduating HS, but now that I am in college I can't)
the 26th I took off cause we stayed up late gathered around the fire being complete fools... but still just laughing and carrying on and just having a lot of fun. So I took monday to rest.
Then yesterday I was tired and well stared at a computer for like i don't know how long nearly all day i know that for sure! So I was tired when I got home and then we had that terrible downpour followed by a deafening thunderstorm...
Then today mom was soooooo stressed out that she kinda blew up on me and it didn't matter what I did, i was wrong and at fault. So on the car ride to the campus, i just turned my music up loud enough to not hear anything but me thinking and just stared at the world outside. I know my friends were like what's wrong. I still didn't talk. Finally mom came out and explained that she was stressed, but c'mon that much to throw water bottles at stuff? Whatever. And what gets me is that I can't do anything right.
She said something and I guess I didn't hear her (though I swear that i heard her say something else) and she got mad thinking i was mad, i wasn't just upset so when i went to apologize I kinda sniffled and was on the verge of tears waiting for her to bite my head off and she yelled at me cause i was crying! She said that she would rather me be mad than cry. So I said fine and did, then she got mad said that she can be too and threw the water bottles. (I just pray the cats and dog didn't get hit...) Before I could go check she threw everything she had ready for school down and screamed she wasn't going and demanded that I go to school, i said no. she shoved me out the door and i didn't get to check if the pets were ok. hell i forgot that my sister was there till just now! question Wonder why she didn't check?? Finally she got in the car though....
But I kinda ignored everyone listening to anything loud i had, even if i had to make it louder! Then she told me she was sorry and just stressed.......
..IDK...
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