I don't know what to say anymore, i hate my life i wish i could just get away from so many people. I am tired of being used and having to feel like s**t just because someone wants to feel happy, i just want the pain to stop. I wish that my life would stop crashing down on me every time it begins to look up. Like the whole thing with me going through a horrible time because my ex wants to make me go through guilt trips then bullshit every time i even talk to her. I just want to break down and cry sometimes.
Other times i would much rather just die than deal with all the s**t in my life, i know there are people out there with much worse. Right now though i just want theese people out of my life, i mean no... not people.. this person. There is only one person who has caused all this pain, the only problem is every time i try to get to her at all or yell at her for all the s**t she does she uses my friend as a shield. My friend to whitch i do not have any major problems but slight irritations and i wish i could remain friends with him. I think she wants me to know that my friend is within her grasp. I feel like he is actually being used by her, and like i can't do anything about it because she did the same thing to me, plus my friend is incredibly thick headed.
*sigh* oh well time will tell, and we will see who the real characters of this are.
 SoullessAssassin · Thu Aug 11, 2005 @ 08:51am · 4 Comments |
