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Me and my parents are doing okay, again...
They can't look me in the face, while I gaze at their eyes.
I dunno.
Its weird.
I've been tired all day, from crying my eyes out to just plain stress.

Dad has been yelling at me all day.
His pills are missing, and we think our friend, Chris, took them.
I really wanna just yell back, and tell him why I've been going against him.
But, I just can't.
I'd probably be smacked for doing so.
AND I'd get in a s**t load of trouble.

I've basically been lying around, drawing pictures, cleaning, and doing my math homework. (And that is weird, 'cause I hate math.)

Me and my dad did get in a fight earlier, though...
He said he wished I was a more obedient daughter, like my younger sister.
ANd I told him that I was glad I'm who I am, because I stand up for what I believe in, unlike her.
I said that she'd probably be the first to give in the peer pressure.
And he yelled back, saying "Don't you ever insult your sister. She's going to be doing much better than you. She doesn't lie to me, she doesn't sneak things, and she actually does her work in school."
So, I had to remind him that I'm in HIGH SCHOOL, and that she's not even in Middle School yet.
I ALSO reminded him that she's not taking a Junior's math class, and that she is in a lower-standard school.
I ALMOST ratted her out, about having previous bfs, but I didn't.
Why?
'Cause I just don't snitch on stuff like that.

Anyway, I'm gunna get back to watching Family Guy and drawing pictures.
I'm still mad at myself for everything that's going on, but I know that I'd do it again in a heartbeat.
ANd its only because its what I honestly believe in.

I know I trust people too easily...
But I really want to make a difference in the world...
And I think that maybe....
Maybe me actually believing people like I do could make that difference.

So. Yeah.

I have no idea when I'll post another entry, or whatever, but tomorrow will probably be the day.

So, until then.