I SEE THE SUN AT MIDNIGHT
By PARKER
By PARKER
DAY 1 –
“Good day,” it’s morning once again and my therapist salutes me with his distracting smile. He’s a midget wearing a reading glass an inch thick and teeth as yellow as a cup of tea, with an 1880’s fashion sense.
You know, I can’t get this guy. “So, how you’ve been this week?” he continues. God, he’s irritating! By the way, my name is Sam, I’m 18. I live with my mother, my father left us when I was born; now, he has an all-new family. Sad, isn’t it? Well, that’s life!
DAY 8 –
I’m playing with my friends right now, Robbie and Andrew, they’re my best friends! We were friends since I was 8. Robbie and Andrew both came from China – at least that’s what my mother said. All my friends came from China, they barely speak at all but not Robbie and Andrew, they’re loud. I speak with them all the time.
Wait, be quiet, okay. My mother’s asleep. She has been in bed all this week since my “therapy,” the thing is, the therapy doesn’t really work. They have nothing to cure, but my mother forces me to have one. She says it will make her happy, so whatever makes mom happy, makes me happy.
I love my mom. Do you love yours?
DAY 13 –
It’s already past my bedtime and I’m still awake. By now, mom would have been very angry at me, but she’s at bed. She’s very, very sick but I can’t help her, she tells me that guy she calls God will. I don’t know much about that God-fellow but my mom sure often speaks a lot of him.
My mother has the breast cancer says the doctor. I don’t know what that is but the doctor-fellow told her that it’s malignant and it has spread already. My mother cried when she heard it, I asked her why but she told me that it’s “tears of joy,” then she smiled. I smiled back.
I heard her say that I need to call my dad, she can’t move right now. She’s in pain. Poor mom, I wish I could be in pain so I can be with her. I’m gonna call my dad, okay? Wait right here.
DAY 21 –
My dad’s taking care of mom. His new wife gave him permission to, he told him that she’s gonna go away very soon and she needs her. I don’t get my dad, he hates me for sure. I know that. She looks at me as though I’m just a speck of dust.
My mom’s in bed right now, she doesn’t want to be in the hospital, she wants to be with me. I love my mom. Right now, she has these tubes around her body – they call it life-support.
DAY 22 –
I’m playing with Robbie right now. He’s telling me how much we are alike.
It’s already late you know, but I don’t care. My mom has not read me a story yet, she hasn’t told me any bedtime story for a while now. She’s always in her life-support. I guess mom’s being busy again.
Wow, the sun’s really shining today, it’s so silent and cold. It’s glowing very, very nicely. Mom has always stared at it ever since I remember, she told me how beautiful and mysterious it was. It always makes her cry, I wonder what she thinks of when she looks at it.
I wonder why she’s not with me tonight, she’s been with me watching the sun ‘til I sleep – maybe it’s because of that God-fellow, he’s made my mom so, so busy that she became so tired and went to bed. Yes, that’s what my father said, he blamed that God-fellow for mom’s condition, he also blames him for me.
I hate my dad, he left us and he hates me.
DAY 30 –
My dad’s crying when I woke up. I went to mom’s room but she wasn’t there, he told me that she had an emergency and he was told to take care of me until I woke up.
DAY 31 –
We’re at the hospital today. Mom is still asleep. The doctor told us that she might not wake up, stupid doctor. Of course, she will. She always does.
Another doctor came in after a while and told my father that she was in a vegetative state, I overheard. I’m not really fond of vegetables. He gave him a choice, that made my father really cry. I was smiling, you know. I was seeing lots of sick people and I guess I belonged there.
DAY 32 –
My father said that I would live with him from now on, I don’t really like him and he didn’t really like me but he said that it was my mom’s wish. I guess he still loves my mom.
We’re at home now, my mom’s still asleep, she is surrounded by many people, they were all crying. I don’t know why? They were mom’s office mates, I know one, he’s name is Bob. Bob’s a really great man, he’ll always joke around, but now, he’s silent, very silent.
I’m just sitting staring at mom. She doesn’t really like the lights on when she sleeps but the light’s very bright and it’s right in front of her. She’ll gonna be really angry when she wakes up.
I’m playing with Andrew, Robbie’ sleeping in my room. My father’s really sad, everybody is. I think I’m the only one smiling, and my mom too. She’s smiling, she always smiles when she sleeps.
DAY 40 –
Mom was already gone when I woke up, dad said that she has to wake up early and go to office. She’s all fine I guess. She’s got fine after her long sleep.
Dad said that she’s working for that God-fellow now. She’s not gonna be back for a long, long time. Well, I love my mom, I can wait. #
