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so far ive been suffering from dillusion, and denyale. So far my innards are about to expell... and ive had weird dreams lately, of me dieing a horrid death, but for somereason i dont know what these images tell me, or what the plot to this is, but one things for sure people have been following me... strange people.... strange figures.... like ghost and things that confuse me... i dont know whats going on my life as of right now... hell i dont know what to do if its true that i die... death is soemthing i dont care about.... life is something i dont care about... im just a lazy asian... gawd if i die which i dont care... i wish i would resurrect and spawn up in purgatory... a place between hell and heaven of which i can sleep all day all long for eternity. So if i dont show up over the spring break... i wont exist any more... ill be dead... if i live dont speak to me about this... something may occur over the break that may cause me to suicide... soemthings wrong with whats going on with my brain.... something that has happened to me twice... a clinicall denyale... where i seclude myself from the world... i start to freak out... and i lose all images of the world... but the last time i was reborn back into this era... but im afraid its come back to haunt me.... this thing... inside me confuses me... what i am is not what i think i am... i have two souls in me... my body and my mind... fight each day each morning... each night each afternoon each second constant chit chat and fight after fight... now both want to restart a new life... and im afraid theirs s 3rd prepective of me.... so 3 souls in one body... if this freaks you out im sorry but this is the 2nd time it will happen

Who knows i may be clinacally insane or soemthing, but i will not harm anyone in anyway