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Things... Well whats been goin on with me lately? Well recently I landed a job last week and been there ever since...but it got in the way of someone I cared about and yea its kinda rough on me....on us....I blame myself mostly....The job I got into isnt the most exciting thing in the world...in fact its friggin boring but anything to pay the bills which I need to pay soon...after all this I think ill settle down and go for a teacher certificate...I have my bachelor of science degree for art why not do something with it...or ill teach little kids...I just love kids. Doesnt mean ill drop my dream of making my own comic or working in my field as an artist. Also Ive been using some of my time to build my site...at first I thought "damn, I cant code for s**t but now it isnt half bad I already have links and stuff to my other areas such as bio and contact page but nothing in them yet ^^;;;; itll be done soon I hope...umm I guess thats it..dont know what else to write about...oh yeah people waiting on art sorry for the wait as soon as I get off of work ill get back into it again ...peace

Posted by: Crazi8s Mon Jul 25, 2005 @ 01:00pm

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Commented on: Mon Jul 25, 2005 @ 04:12pm


	You needed the job... you had to do what you had to do... laughs faintly Your life is getting all nice and straightened out and on track and mine is slipping away...

Commented on: Tue Jul 26, 2005 @ 01:00am


	What life? Im only stating what I wish I could put into it....I want to be a teacher doesnt mean I may be....nice and straightened out..I hardly see it that way

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Commented on: Tue Jul 26, 2005 @ 03:55pm


	You have your job. You know what you're going to be doing next. You're setting the course for your future. None of it involves me.

Commented on: Wed Jul 27, 2005 @ 12:06am


	did you ever think maybe I couldve used the money to finish paying my loans and then making a trip to see you and spending time with you....? No you havent...all you can do is say how im setting my goals...if there is gonna be this hostility between us then I should stop writing in my own journals...no matter what I write youre gonna just hurt me with your words...you dont think I have thought this through? but you just ..sigh nevermind....im already hurt by the situation we went through I dont need anymore....

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Commented on: Wed Jul 27, 2005 @ 03:54pm


	No, I didn't think. How could I? Where in your plans did you say that, hmm? Am I a mind reader? I hurt you with my words... laughs faintly well, god forbid. Please, keep hurting me and let me not retaliate at all then. We wouldn't want to hurt you. No, I don't think you've thought this through. If you had, you'd realize that I will never build up the kind of trust I need to meet you if you're not even HERE. I didn't even have a chance to rebuild my faith in you before you took this job. YOU don't need anymore hurt... yeah... you're right... YOU don't need anymore...Neither do I... When does mine get to stop?

Commented on: Wed Jul 27, 2005 @ 11:34pm


	you know what...im just not gonna write or respond anymore to this Ive done all I can I already knew what would happen and yet it doesnt cross your mind that I tried to get around the schedule...and yes I had plans to see you in fact that was somethign I wanted to do when we were together but now im getting all of this.....I have no energy to fight with you hell I didnt even want to I love you a lot but youre just gonna ask me "If I loved you why are you no longer with me?" I cant help I need a 9 to 5 job....you can stay bitter if you choose but then youre gonna lose me forever...infact you already did ....

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Commented on: Thu Jul 28, 2005 @ 01:03am


	Do you think that's a surprise to me? I already have. I'm the one that's been upset over it, remember? I was just holding out some hope that somehow... never mind... Anyway, don't worry. You won't have to fight me anymore.

Commented on: Thu Jul 28, 2005 @ 02:25am


	Thats what I wanted some hope but all you did was just knock it down ......never believing .....so its obvious there isnt anymore hope for either of us

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Commented on: Sat Jul 30, 2005 @ 09:24am


	Omigod... .. that's horrible... ... she's a complete waste..

Commented on: Mon Aug 01, 2005 @ 01:24pm


	if you love someone you will let them go. and if you truly love them you will do whatever in your power to make them happy. even if that means you will be un happy.. 3nodding look BlackStar111 you are 2 bessy worrying about yourself and how you feel.. if you truly loved him you would take the time 2 see how he feels.. things happen for a reson and god has a plan for you im sure.. but you cant feel sorry about yourself for something you cant even change.. get over it luv sharon

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