today was a day for people to be pissed at me, first someone asks for my caculator and i said i don't have one, he gets pissed and starts talking about me, so later on i see i have my calculator but cuz he talked about me i didn't give it to him
later on in 3rd block a girl asked for some paper i said no i'm out, she gets pissed and starts talking about me too, i found some paper in this book and offer it to her and she rejects it like i ******** infected it, so i throw it on the floor and said "knock urself out"
and right after that block during luch i was sitting at a table i sit at every lunch period with the usual people and this boy that i sit with everyday (he's mean to me but i only sit there until i'm done eating so i don't really care about him) and the boy is yelling and screaming and hurting my ears, and so i look at him to see what he's doing cuz he's pissing me off, and he looks at me and says "what the hell u looking at?!" and before i could answer he goes off and does something else again screaming and hurting my ears and he comes back to me and asks if i have a problem, and i said yeah, i'm having a bad day and ur hurting my ears, and i made sure he heard me and he says what? and i said ur screaming so loud u can't even hear, and he starts telling people "somebody better get her before i start cussing her out" and there's like people holdin him back and shyt, it was so funny i'm srry i had to keep from laughing, and i just calmly sat there as he cussed me out and got all in my face and he even pushed me and his eyes got so red and i still sat there calmly watching him leave and come back repeatedly just to cuss me out, it was too funny
today i really wanted to just cry because people are getting pissed at me when i didn't do anything but i ended up laughing because like even my father got made at me for things i didn't do and he yelled at me and i go so scared i peed on myself, and now i'm getting the same crap from people at school and i felt so miserable i just ended up laughing because i got tired of being yelled at and being afraid i just laughed and it pissed him off but now i wonder if i really did do something wrong or something
well the one that cussed me out told me not to sit there anymore, should i sit there or not?? idk u tell me
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Boys your age tend to be very aggressive due to all the wild hormones, and any challenge to their dominance (especially from *gasp* a girl) is threatening to them. By not responding to his threats you diminished him in his eyes and the eyes of his peers. I don't know what sort of guy he is, so you'll have to decide based on what you know of him how to respond. Is he the sort to hold a grudge? Or to pick fights or bully others in order to assert himself? By moving to another table you'd be acting submissive by giving into his threats. Would he be the type to be satisfied in his victory or would he be more likely to continue to take advantage of the fact that you were cowed?
Personally, I'd probably just stay sitting where I was originally and if he started harassing me I'd ignore him or squeal to the authorities. There's no point in suffering in silence, since the only person you'd be protecting is him. But then again I was in a girl's school between 11 and 16 so never had any experience mixing with make peers of that age, so I couldn't predict for you what he'd do.
But anyway, deary, I hope it gets a bit better for you tomorrow *hug*
-Dilly