yesterday was really the most mixed up day of my life. Seriously!
1. my day was going ok. stayed on the computer all day. 2. my second cousin died that afternoon.....I always considered her and aunt. 3. I was last to know.........that got me the most. 4. I'm out of friggin soda! 5. I'm feeling sad, happy, depressed, mad, scared, and over-flown with guilt.
so there you have it, I went moping around the house for a few hours, and that didn't even work, It usually does. the good thing is that my mom isn't gonna take me or my brother to the Waking ceremony or the funeral. THANK GOD!! If I went you'd probably see me cry so hard and I'd throw-up, I can't handle dead people but I can handle ghosts.... go figure. Atleast she died at peace, she suffered from cancer, in her bones and brain. she had to be put in a coma last wednesday. it was good that she wasn't in any pain, but we are gonna miss her so much........ sad cry crying
Pyrogirl420 · Sun Jul 24, 2005 @ 03:38pm · 1 Comments |