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I find out a lot of things, and the thing I have discovered that happens to me the most right now is as I get to know someone for a few years they tend to start hating me. It sucks. The person I trust a lot doesnt realize what he is doing half he time, or so I wish to believe. I really don't want to believe thathe would hurt me so much on purpose. Sometimes I end up bring it upon myself. I prety much have no friends. I only can think of 2 and it almost feels like they're really starting to hate me. I know I am assumeing a lot of suff and I need to stop but sometiimes I just feel a lot better after I rant to myself. It isn't likke someone is ging to read this anways. The only person who does read it, doesnt do it until I tell him that I put an entery in. Thus complaining like this is almost like complaining to my self. So all of this is about as pointless as... something that's pointless... can't think of anything... XP Gawd! I need to grow up! Me me me! That is all I think about! XP Not any more. I am not just going to think just about me. I feel kinda like i forced my friend to let me come here to vist him. I feel that way a lot. I have started to feel that way sence the begining of this school year. I have also felt like I have been forcing others to even talk to me. XP XP XP XP Im going to shut up now. I fel like an a**....